2008-07-07, 1:01 a.m.

going going going going gone

The more I look at your face the more it changes morphs into something hideous ugly deformed I don’t know who you are anymore or what I’m looking at, if it’s your face or a monster or something I’ll never have a name for but I just keep staring and staring because you are the only one I can never and will never forget it’s the tragedy of my life that my heart will always belong to this ugly deformed face in front of me in a photo taken in a place I never was with people I will never be friends with and then you in the middle holding yourself like a quiet calm face perfect smooth like a doll like a wax statue your emotions are lacking lacking lacking, I will miss you already miss you have missed you since the day I met you since you were already gone already left the building already vacant behind simple smiles and nods of affirmation, you became this phantom that haunted me and still haunts me on every street corner on every building you are there you are there you are everywhere I go and places I will go, you have stained them with your presence and tainted them, forever ruined them, because I will go to these places that you once haunted and will feel sorrow hit me somewhere below my ribcage but you will never feel that, will never know what I felt because I will never tell you because you wouldn’t care would only nod in affirmation and then go away forever, like you will anyway.